Complex Feelings

I have been having a hard time in school lately. My grades suck. I feel like I've been a jerk to everyone. I completely and utterly failed at me NaNoWriMo attempt. I haven't wrote a blog in forever. I've quit Honors English. I have no clue what I should do with my life.
I need somewhere to go.
Where nobody is judging me and I can just say what I need to say.
And I won't hurt anyone else.

Please don't find this as a suicide note or anything, because it's not. I just need to write and share my feelings.

NaNoWriMo?!

Okay! I have almost given up on writing a novel in a month! It is just not possible for me to think of a story with enough depth to cover 50,000 words!

An Inevitable Future (what I've been working on) has depth but I can't seem to put what I want on paper or Microsoft Word for that matter.

Mrs. Barney asked today how I'm doing on it and I told that I had only 1,624 words! I don't think this is impossible for me when we are supossed to be more than 10,000 words by now!

Not only has Mrs. Barney asked about it but in the same day an adult in my ward, whom I happen to hometeach, who has offered to do my cover for me, brought it up today and I had to tell him that I was struggling!

I feel so overwhelmed and stressed right now! I only hope that I can get this novel done in my lifetime!

I do not want to disappoint everybody that I have told about it!

I don't know what to do!

Do you have any advice for an inexperienced writing enthusiest?

So....

So.....
What has happened to me the last week?
We've been working on Dinner Theatre.
Oh, I went shotgun and .22 shooting with scouts!
I have been given the chance to tryout for the Music Man early because I'm gonna be gone on the actual day!

So....
Oh! I found a Fallout Boy (Featuring John Mayer) version of Micheal Jackson's Beat It!
We now have Christmas Music for Rhapsody! Well...one song anyway!
My brother wants to tryout for the Music Man! And I don't want him to! Why you ask? Because...I don't know I guess I'm selfish!

So......
Good-Bye!

12 Dancing Princesses?

Today was our first performance of our Rhapsodian Mini-Musical: The Twelve Dancing Princesses!
It was amazing, I've heard, and I had sooo much fun!!!
I only wish I got to see it! *girly sigh*

Stress

I am sooo stressed over NaNoWriMo right now!!!!

It is just as hard as it sounds to write a novel in 30 days!!!

Not just that but I have to finish COMC by Wedsday!!!!

I also have a performance this week and Dinner Theatre in like two weeks!!!!!


If you are feeling stressed....do something about it....email me....and....we can grieve TOGETHER!

Blog Post!

Okay, I'm going to post a bunch of random stuff like.............

In like two minutes I'm going to the school to help Mrs. Louriero with some Dinner Theatre Stuff!
We all know that today's special event is Halloween. I'm seriously not that excited about that. I'm more excited to go visit my long last friend!
Speaking of which, we are supposed to be meeting up with him at Chapel Park, but *shrug* who knows if it's gonna work out?
So.... Oh I know!
Tomorrow is when NaNoWriMo starts! I'm so excited!

NINJA! NINJA! NINJA!

As of now I am officaly freaked out!
Terms end is on Thursday!!!
And I averaged my (horrible) grades and I got about 82.3% which is a low B-!
I know most of are saying: Hey that's not THAT bad!
Guess what I say to those people that say that?

You are completely right!
I am soooo glad I am (as of October 26 2008 appro. 6:15PM) not below a 3.0 cuz you know that would mean I couldn't be mascot! And HIM2 would take my place cuz he's the alternate! That wouldn't be pretty!


Today I made a goal and the only way I am going to complete that goal is if I get off my lazy but and FINISH ENDER'S GAME IN ONE DAY!!!


P.S. I left COMC in Money's class so I'm challenging myself this weekend!

P.S.S. Don't ask me about the title cuz I don't know either!

P.S.S.S. If you scrolled up to look at the title I'm laughing at you right now!

P.S.S.S.S. If you didn't scroll up before you just did now and now we are both laughing at you!